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So... I will admit I've been slacking lately... like way bad! And although this post isn't like the others... I think it kinda fits! I was talking to my second mother today and honestly... Wow! How thankful I am to have her in my life! She made me realize that she gave me the ultimate charity! She helped raise me! Although I do love my biological mother a lot, my second mom was there in other ways my 1st mom couldn't be! And today felt like she was truly the only one that understands me! My 2nd mommy has been a homemaker since she's been married and had her first daughter (which is also one of my best friends) and she LOVES it! It's simply what she's always wanted to do! and I must admit... I'm the exact same way! I want to be a homemaker, and honestly... I can't believe that more woman wouldn't want that! Homemakers get to do everything!! My biggest problem with finding a different career is that I simply love to dip my toes into EVERYTHING! I want to be an event planner, a photographer, and accountant, a chef, a leader, a scientist, a teacher, but I don't want to make them all my LIFE! I want to make other people my life... And what better way of doing that than someday meeting an amazing guy and having wonderful, yet horrible all at the same time children together! Now I understand that I need to go to school and be prepared... but that's not what this post is about... This is more about how I'm so incredibly sick and tired of people telling me to stop worrying about the guy I'm going to marry, and how tired I am of people telling me that once I get married... my life changes, and kids? Well if I have those too early my life ends!?! As far as I'm concerned my life will be beginning!! I'm not saying it would be rainbows and butterflies, but honestly... so what?! My life hasn't been that way single I wouldn't expect it to be that way... EVER! My 2nd mom is the only one that gets me because she's seen my life from a very close, personal, adult perspective since I was 10, and she knows how much I care about people, and she knows how much being sealed to someone means to me! She knows how important a family raised in the church means to me! I was given a lot of opportunities in life, but I believe I can give my children even more that I didn't have! Even my children's friends! I want to be someone else's second mom as well! For all of you that keep telling me it's going to be hard and my life will never be the same, well GREAT!!! Cause if any of you mothers come up to me and tell me how hard and frustrating it is and how tired you are all the time, but it's not worth it... than I don't think you deserve to be mothers. Of course it's worth it! And I'm not saying it will happen tomorrow... I'm not going to go off and marry the first guy I meet because he has the best genetics, or will support me. I'm going to be careful! So next time you think I'm obsessed... Maybe look and see it's because I am very well aware of the fact that it will change my life forever! And I'm looking for the "perfect for me guy" to be with me forever... And maybe it's because you guys don't really realize the things I saw and went through, not only in my family, but in my friends families... So take care of yourselves before you worry about my future... I'm excited to be a homemaker someday.. And I'm sorry you're not.

The Bridge From January to February

Well goodness!!! January surely was an adventure! I was able to focus most of my energy on faith... Yesterday and throughout the month I was a little confused because I knew that's what I was supposed to focus on, but I hadn't really had any huge trials of faith... only small ones... but thinking about it more... I think my trials of faith are only beginning... Hopefully things go well and that I will look back on the past and remember to have faith through it all... I do believe I have a better sense of faith, but you never know until you put it to the test... I know I can get through anything though. I just need to focus on the prize and that my friends is eternal life.

I've been thinking a lot about what I can do the month of February and in what aspect I can become better... I think since February is all about love and what not. My focus for this month is going to be charity! Charity is a very important thing to build in our lives because it emphasizes the importance of love and diminishes pride. Which it is said that Pride is kinda the basis of all sin... it's what convinces us to sin and keeps us from repenting... Charity is a very hard thing to build because the natural man is so quick tempered, and selfish. I don't even think it will take only a month! So hopefully I can at least scratch the surface and become a little more giving! I also realized something... Just because I have my temple recommend and can go anytime I want... doesn't mean I don't have to work hard anymore...  it just means I have to work harder. My journey isn't over just because I reached a goal! I now have to stay worthy and only grow up from it! We always need to work to stay worthy for the temple. I think sometimes people take for granted that the Lord allows imperfect people into his house... He invites us there to become more perfect and to help those who did not get the chance on this life to become more perfect as well! I believe that building charity will be a very big help to that! I love service! I love helping people! But I do think charity is a little bit more than that... and over the month hopefully we will grasp an idea of it!

So this month is February.... The Journey To An Increase Of Charity!